Nice to hear from you and hope your recover is continuing.
Thank you for your kind thoughts and words. Feel very much as though I am a 'robot going through the motions' but am pleased to say that all necessary official notifications as regards late hubby are completed to the best of our ability. The children continue to keep me company where necessary (extra pair of ears/thoughs very helpful). Gp is happy I am managing and sees me again after I return to work.
Monday had seemed a long time away until now! The celebration of his life is to be well attended and I will be seeing people who had 'known, worked with and loved him' over many years. No doubt more emotional fallout (only to be expected and managed of course). My six year old grandson summed it up beautifully 'A party for Grandad - why when he cannot be there?' - the wonderful innocence of childhood. We have spent some time with him looking through old photo albums (and envisage doing it some more as it raised lots of laughs).
The final goodbye is a hard day ahead but my heart is full of memories (42 years long) which I am hoping will carry me forward into a 'different normal'. The forum has been and am pretty sure will remain part of my coping mechanism.
Sending peaceful thoughts for you and yours. Jules x