My poor mom is only 53 and for months has been experiencing severe back pain and mobility problems. She has been in and out of hospital throughout this period but the doctors could find no cause. Some suspected malignant meningitis as she had breast cancer last year and said it must have spread to the meninges. Now her symptoms are progressing, she can not speak or swallow, has lost so much weight and is rapidly deteriorating. It seems clear now that it is the cancer but it has been such a hard and difficult journey for us all and now is having such a horrible ending. I am her daughter and am 23 with three younger brothers, the youngest being 17. My dad is heartbroken and so is my nan as she lost her only other daughter 25 years ago. It doesn't seem right or fair but I want to be able to help my family through, particularly my youngest brother. I just don't know how we are all going to cope we were always such a happy family. She is coming home this week for end of life care and it all feels like a terrible nightmare. I keep feeling sick and having terrible headaches where I feel like I can't do anything. I don't know what will become of us.