This week has been the most harrowing of my life and I know that nothing will ever come close to the grief I am feeling right now.....losing the woman that loved me unconditionally has ruined me.
My mum passed last Monday, I’ve been trying to be a big man about it but this feeling is titanic....a sense of loss I can’t see the end of.
She died from cancer, it started in her cervix and she had a robotic hysterectomy a few months ago. I thought that would be the end of it. But instead, it spread to her bowel (or had already resided there) and ultimately it spread to her brain. The last 2 weeks have been hell. I spent 6 days watching the disease turn my mum into a zombie, when just 6 days before she was texting/calling me as she always did. Her decline was nothing short of savage.
The only solice I have is that she is back with her husband, my stepdad, who she never got over when he died last year. She was never the same after he passed.
I’ve never experienced pain like this....I am just a shell right now, and I see no way to bounce back from this.
