Am feeling really lost since I lost my hubby a month back. He battled with cancer and bonemarrow transplant for almost a decade. After all the fight he has put up, it was really shocking to see him go. I guess we both did not see it coming as he was doing well after the transplant.
He was very courageous and accepted what came his way. I have spent almost all my time with him in last few years, walking by his side. Was with him till the end. We provided each other strength and comfort. He was my entire world as we have no kids.
Now I feel I have no purpose in life. Everything I cherished or ever want is taken away from me. I just can not imagine living life without him just on my own.
With my family's support I am trying to remain strong and take baby steps everyday to get on with my life. Honestly, I don't want to do any of it. I just feel so empty. I believe after all the struggle he has been through, it was probably best for him to go. I have been always indepedent woman however the thought on living without him scares me and keeps me awake. I am constantly on emotional roller-coaster, talking about him makes me feel good and sad at the same time.
I feel cheated by life!!