Yes, that is something I always said (it is like being at a birthday party when everyone else is being offered a big slice of cake (40 years maybe) and I'm being offered a few crumbs), and it's not selfish.
Like you, I want it all! And I continue to do my best to help my treatment along with diet and exercise.
But I have put on an extraordinary amount of weight again through lockdown and with a hip problem - it needs urgent attention! :o
Good luck with your chemo next week. I think your attitude towards it is an excellent one (that the chemo will be working for you). I found it too easy to slip into sad mode and feel like a victim of side effects. It became easier for me when I pictured the chemo destroying the tumours like a battle. Then it became a positive experience and my feelings about it became constructive and healthy again.
Thank you so much for reading my posts. I incredibly grateful to still be here and, after never allowing myself to even hope to reach 50, or have any grand children, I am 54 next month and my sixth grandchild is due in November too! So, if I can give a bit back I'm really pleased.
Glad you're raring to begin!
You're always welcome to pm me, and I do often check on here. I will always reply if I see a message or post on here.
Lots of huge hugs (socially distanced of course!) and best wishes,