Just been to the Breast Clinic...

So a couple of weeks ago I was having a shower the night before going for a cervical smear and as I ran my hands down my breasts I felt a lump in the left one a few centimetres above the nipple. Obviously it worried me immediately so the next day I booked an emergency appointment and saw a doctor that same morning after the cervical smear. She put in for an urgent referral and this morning I went with my husband and 10-month old baby to the Breast Clinic.

The doctor felt my breast and remarked that the lump was quite big then sent me off for an ultrasound. The sonographer did the ultrasound and then said that she would like to do a biopsy and also aspirate the lymph node (not sure if that’s the correct terminology?) on that side. I was then sent back to the first doctor, who showed us the ultrasound and in her exact words said “we’re not exactly sure what it is”, however the lump had jagged edges and she said she thought it was a 3 but the sonographer has graded it a 4. I now have an appointment for next Wednesday to find out the results.

I just don’t know what to do with myself. Two hours later and I’ve only just stopped crying. How do I get through 8 days of this agonising wait to find out if I have cancer, which right now seems more than likely? I’m only 27 years old, I married my incredible husband 3 years ago, we have the most beautiful baby girl in the world and were just talking last week about starting to try for number 2 soon. My life is just getting started!!

  • Hello tbh17,

    I know it's really hard at the moment but try not to worry too much until you get your results. The next few days will probably feel like a lifetime to you, but try and keep busy (babies are a good distraction for that!) and stay away from looking things up online if you can as this will only make you feel more anxious.

    Many ladies here have been through a similar wait for results and know exactly how you are feeling at the moment. Perhaps you would like to talk things through with our nurses? You can ring them Monday to Friday from 9am to 5pm on this free number 0808 800 4040.

    If you need to reach out at any point including over the weekend, don't hesitate to come back here. It won't be long now until you find out more.

    We will be thinking of you on Wednesday - if you get a chance do come back here and give us a little update.

    Best wishes,

    Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Please let me know how you get on, I’m due to go to the breast clinic in 2 weeks with a lump, I’m 26 and it just doesn’t feel like it can be possible.

    are you ok to drive after the biopsy?

  • Will do. Sorry to hear that you’re going through the same thing.

    I don’t drive but they didn’t mention anything about not being allowed to drive afterwards so I would assume it’s fine. They only give you a local anaesthetic in the breast (and under armpit in my case).

    Good luck x

  • I was told very emphatically not to drive the day of the biopsy. 

  • I was fine to drive after mine but obviously everyone is different and the emotional side will come into play too.  It all becomes very real when you are there getting the biopsy done so if you are someone who might struggle with the emotional side then take someone with you and let them do the driving.

    Wishing you all the best!!!!

    LJx

  • Hi tbh17,

    So sorry you're having all this to worry about.  You're in good hands here as we've all been there and the waits are undoubtedly the worst.  Although older than you I only got married last July so this discovery has been our first year as husband and wife.

    In some ways I was 'lucky' I guess as I knew from the minute I found a lump (which wasn't even the actual lump and it had disppeared a week later) I knew it was cancer so nothing they told me was a shock.  But you are in the position of not knowing yet and even if it does appear to be the likely cause it's just not worth letting it ruin your days when you don't know yet.  You obviosuly have a lot of positive aspects in your life to focus on so try and let them distract you as best you can.

    All easier said than done I know though, honestly.

    Wishing you all the best and let us know how you go on Wednesday, good luck.

    LJx

  • Good luck and best wishes,,you can ...I did not stop bleeding and had to have a stitch and  whished  I did not have to drive back home by myself x

  • Thank you all for goving me advice about driving :)

    im going with my partner but he does not drive, I would take my Mam so she could drive but unfortunately my dads having his first chemo session 4 days before my appointment, and with him going through this I havent actually told them about my appointment, I know that may sound stupid but I’m so sure it would set him back if he knew! It might be nothing serious after all and I just want all the info before telling him.

     

    the waiting for appointments is the worst, I know with Dad it was almost a relief to get the results even if it did mean cancer, the not knowing and living in limbo is worse. Least when you know what it is you feel like you can move forward.

  • I’m doing OK all things considered - thanks for asking. My husband had an unexpected day off work today so we went out and had a really nice family day together.

    For the first three days after the biopsy and being told it was a BIRADS 3 or 4 I just couldn’t stop crying but recently I’ve felt kind of numb apart from a constant weight inside me like suppressed panic. It’s really hard to enjoy anything and like you I haven’t told my family (except my parents who live with us and my mum-in-law who had BC a couple of years ago). I just don’t want them to have to deal with the days and days of worrying until I get the results. 3 days to go! I’ve never known time to go so slowly.