Hi im jane and had a double lumpoctomey which were removed 2 and a half years ago. Two months later they found that it had gone into two of my lymphnoids, which again they removed 8 of them, I am very scared about it returning and always checking for lumps, I have been in remisssion for 2 and half years now but every day is a struggle,as I live on my own and suffer from severe anxiety and depression, I am house bound and find some Chores very hard to do like changing a duvet or even washing up , as I have lost a lot of my muscle due to not getting out, Is there someone out there that knows of any help i can recieve at home. Every day is like a struggle and I feel the weight of the cancer on me all the time. Can anyone relate to this, as its very distressing.