Hi Lilabel. I think with the holiday season not many replies are forthcoming. I had lumpectomy in Feb 2017 and radiotherapy which finished in April 2017. I'm on tamoxifen as well. Recurrence thoughts and anxiousness have been with me since i started this journey. I had my first mammogram 2 weeks ago and am very anxious. I relive everything up to being diagnosed last year and feel all my body for lumps and anything unusual. I do calm myself down but if it's sthg persistent then I get in touch with the breast cancer nurse. It's perfectly natural to have these bouts of panic or anxiousness. But you're in the system and being treated and will be monitored so that's a good thing. I just think if it comes back for me - I'll just have to handle it & get on with it but why worry about sthg that hasn't happened? One day at a time and breathe. You got This!