Hi, 

i don’t really know where to start. I feel so broken and useless. My mum has terminal brain cancer and she has told us the Dr didn’t tell her how long she has left but I think she’s just saying that so we don’t crowd her. She’s a very stubborn but proud woman . In the 6 weeks since her diagnosis she has got rapidly worse. She now has careers all day and a sleeping carer. 

My dad lives with her but he is 86 and finding it all so tiring so I’m glad the carers are helping him. 

I live 3 hours away and have been there as much as I can between working full time in a busy hotel. I’m feeling so guilty that I can’t be there more and I’m feeling useless. 

I wanted to plan an early Xmas with mum and dad but it’s looking less likely to happen now as she can’t walk far, can’t talk well, isn’t eating much and today she told me her fingers and hands aren’t working now. 

I don’t think she has long left and I don’t know what to do or say. Thinking about things makes me just cry. 

Sorry for the long post but I don’t know what to do now. I’m lost