Devastated

Hi. Don't quite know where to start. The beginning is always the best. For the past 14 yrs I go for yearly mammograms. All been negative till 2 weeks on Thursday. Recalled back in for ultrasound. Soon as I entered the room a nurse placed a box of tissues near me. I knew instantly. Ultrasound done and biopsies taken. I asked the radiologist to be honest as far as she could tell. She didn't need to tell me. Her eyes did it for me. I think because they all know me as I've been going for all those years. Looks like it's been caught early. Still doesn't help you does it? I received a phone call  yesterday to say results in and appointment booked for tomorrow. That dreaded Thursday again. Il never look at Thursdays in the same light. However am I going to take those steps into that hospital. My legs feel extremely heavy now, like I know I'm walking but how. I know I'm going to just go off into another world whilst the specialist is handing out my findings. I just dont know how I'm going to do it