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Devastated

21 Jul 2021 11:55 in response to Jax69

Let me know how it goes for you xx

Devastated

21 Jul 2021 12:33 in response to Cmb1985

I will. I promise xx

Devastated

21 Jul 2021 22:53 in response to Jax69

Hi 

keep your chin up, I was diagnosed with a sarcoma last Tuesday, CT scan happened on Friday and hope and pray each day that it hasn't spread, I am going through every emotion under the sun I'm angry I'm scared I'm frightened.  The consultants are having their meeting on Monday and can only hope it can get cut out I don't care if I loose my hair I just need to fight this 

please let me know how you get on

Devastated

21 Jul 2021 23:07 in response to Jax69

Hi sorry to read what your going through.

When I had my recall after the ultrasound etc consultant told me it was cancer but we still had to wait for results. That was in March. I'm now going through chemo, bald and have good days and bad but I have made some amazing friends from this site. We support each other as know and understand what we are going through. So don't be scared to reach out to strangers. Friends and family are great but don't understand. 

Wishing you all the best for tomorrow. Please let us know how you get on.

Louise xxx

 

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 02:32 in response to Jax69

 

Hi Jax,

I just want to wish you well for tomorrow. Regardless of the outcome, you will feel better once you know what you are dealing with and start to fight it. I have had 2 bouts in the past 12 years and still lead a busy and fulfilled life. Treatment can be a challenge, but once that is out of the way, you can get back to living life to the full again.

Please let us know how it goes tomorrow. We are always here for you.

Kind regards,

Jolamine xx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 05:48 in response to Jolamine

Hi Jax.

I would suggest taking someone with you. 

There's still so many rules in place because of covid but I emailed the consultants secretary and asked if I could bring my husband when I found out the final results and it made the world of difference. He has the notebook and questions and makes sure I don't miss the sentiment of how everything is said and means I can ask him to recall for me.

 

The first few appointments when I was on my own were a total blur and I can't really remember everything I was told properly.

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 07:09 in response to annie1974

I've woken up feeling sick to my stomach, my body is already going into overdrive. I feel unsteady on my legs all the time. 4pm il know. If I can do it so can you. God knows how I'm going to get through this day till 4pm but I will. I will let you know as soon as I am back. We are not alone. You have me. We will get through this together. Xx

 

Jax xx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 07:16 in response to Greece_E

This appointment my husband is coming with me. Even though I had to ask. I cannot believe they knew I had it by the scan and made me go on my own last time . I came back from the hospital and went off for three hours walking. Can't even remember where I went. The world was a blur.

I so want these hours to go slow today but 4pm will come like it always does and my world once again will come tumbling down.

I think it's the not knowing. I know I've got bc but it's the next procedures that are scaring me.

Il try and keep strong. Thank you for your kind wishes. Il inform later the outcome xx

 

Jax xx

 

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 07:22 in response to Bellelouise

It's still baffled me how it wasn't picked up on my last mammogram a year ago. I'm hoping it's not the aggressive one. I've woken up feeling so sick and scared. 

I can do this. I've been through miscarriages, a violent relationship, you name it. So I'm sure I've got some strength left in me to fight this. The best thing I did yesterday was sign up on here. Everyone understands  exactly how each and everyone one of us feels.

I didn't want this but if it's brought me closer to people like yourselves than that's the best outcome anyone can have xx

Il post todays outcome  later xx

 

Jax xx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 07:28 in response to Jax69

Big hugs xxx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 07:29 in response to Greece_E

Oh yes I've got a list as long as my arm of questions lol xx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 07:39 in response to annie1974

Xxx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 08:06 in response to Jax69

Hi jax69,

I will be thinking of you today, I had my CT results yesterday after being told last week that the 7cm lump they removed from my cervix was a rare cancer. 
 

yesterday was the longest day of my life and one I will never forget and I never want to repeat , my appointment wasn't until 5, so I was frantic all day, no one Understands unless been through it but I was told the CT and cervix is all clear of cancer, my amazing consultant managed to cut it all out. I  still have a journey ahead to make sure I am 100 percent free and may need more surgery or treatment but I could not of asked for better news. Considering it was so large it seems it was still early stages. 
 

good luck, you can do this xx

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 08:18 in response to Workingmum

So happy for you it's clear. I know exactly how you felt. I'm feeling it now.

4pm. Such a long wait. 5pm for you. Doesn't it baffle you why results days aren't done in the mornings. It is what it is.

 

Thank you for taking the time to read my post. Let's hope my next post isn't as devastating as the first but I've got a feeling it will be. Xxx 

Devastated

22 Jul 2021 08:28 in response to Workingmum

It's weird but I feel  like this cancer chat site is my personal army. They are all fighting with me and for me. Such a lovely feeling xx