Hi all, we are fast approaching the 1st anniversary of losing my mum to cancer. Also her birthday is soon and she passed away on Mother's Day last year. I am for sure struggling. I have considered counselling to help me but I am reluctant to discuss my childhood and issues I had for all my life with my mum. The best relationship we had was her final 8 weeks spent in hospital. I miss her so much, it's tiring, as I am struggling too with her being on my mind literally all my awake hours. Also tired of pretending to the world I'm okay