I was diagnosed with cancer six weeks ago after my first op when the surgeon had an accident with the diathermy and burned my nipple. I was not prepared this could happen and was only prepared fora few stitches and a scar!! It's took six weeks to heal and because they didn't get clear margins I have next op on Monday and am told that may not be the last!!
So I had a double whammy as they say. I have not only been catapulted into the world of cancer and trying to find my feet as well as no matter how positive I try to look at it - finally have had to acknowledge how I feel about the damage to my body while others dismiss it and want to shove it under the 'plastics hat' as if that should make it ok!!
So all this as well as a lot of pain having to deal with work issues relationship issues and life!! ( coz it doesn't stop coz uv got cancer!!)
this all seems to have come to a head this week and I've been quite down and need to prepare for worse to come next week!! I am not going to apologise for ranting or sounding like feeling sorry for myself or make up for it by telling you the positive!! No I'm going to let it out pure and simple!! (feel like I'm being really naughty now!!)
I would like to walk from my job they pay lip service to support- shout stop to positivity and shout I don't want cancer or ops or damaged breast and scream!!!! There I said it!!!!