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Can anyone help?

6 Feb 2018 22:54

I was a "normal" 18 year old. I worked my butt off, just passed my driving test, got a new car, social drinks, in love, it was great! Until 14/03/17 when I got diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia.

Treatment hasn't been kind. 8 infections, 7 months out of 10 in hospital, kidney failure, lost my hair twice, weight gain, a lot of weight lose, the list goes on... 

I can't help but think I've been through all this, yet I find myself worrying about silly things. I am a long way from being the strong, healthy person I was. I get these things take time! I guess what I'm trying to ask is, does anyone else worry that they've done enough? I seem to worry a lot. I feel like I should be at work, going out and living life. Yet, I'm weak, no one bothers anymore and my anxiety is that bad I can't leave the house alone. 

Sorry for blabbering on. 

Re: Can anyone help?

6 Feb 2018 23:10 in response to SummerLouise18

Hi there Louise ... bless ya heart ... you shouldn't have to go through this journey at your age ... your right , you should be doing all those things you said ... it's hard enough when it's my age (63) So my hunny , you have a rant at this cruel cancer that doesn't care what age, or fitness or if someone's really kind ... there was a letter on here a while ago about a 2 year old starting chemo ... it makes me really angry at cancer..

But I wish for you when you get stronger and kick cancers bum , you will do all those things you dream of many other things too ..... cancer wants to beat us down and feel like giving up ... but you can take it by the short and curlies and kick it's bum all the way along ... I'm sending you positive vibes and a virtual hug ... I hope "ask the nurses" pick this up and they can give you other sites for young ones going through this, so you can chat to other teenagers ... but your always welcome here ... there is always someone that will hold your hand and help you through ... big big hug ... Chrissie ❤

Re: Can anyone help?

7 Feb 2018 09:28 in response to SummerLouise18

Welcome to the forum SummerLouise18 although I'm sorry to read about your diagnosis and the journey you've been on so far.

Please don't apologise for 'blabbering on' as that is what the forum is for and your thoughts and feelings are completely understandable for the situation you find yourself in.

As our lovely member Chriss has mentioned there is an online community for teenagers that you may like to get involved in. It's called CLIC Sargent and is aimed at 16 - 24 year olds who have or had cancer. They also have a forum just like ours where you can speak to others of a similar age about what you are going through. If you'd like to find out more just click here.

Kind regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

Re: Can anyone help?

7 Feb 2018 09:59 in response to SummerLouise18

Hi Louise, Cancer at 18 is really rubbish. I was 56 when diagnosed and felt unlucky. But 18! Here's hoping that you make a complete recovery. My understanding (although I'm not a medic) is that most ALL patients do.  But it will take time, so don't feel guilty about not doing much! You must be exhausted, physically and emotionally. Best wishes. Harry