Hi there, last week i noticed a brown stripe on my baby toe nail, i looked up on google what it could be and found out about subungal melanoma, finding out about this has terrified me. I do not recall hurting my toe in any way so i doubt it is a bruise. I called my doctor who has referred me to a dermatologist but i have an eight day wait until then and i am extremely worried and scared. I cant stop reading about subungal melanoma and comparing it to mine i wake up every morning sick to my stomach i dont feel like eating or doing anything enjoyable. Just feel very lost and not understanding why this is happening to me
It's a really tough time for you, AnxietyGirl. Such a shame that you have to wait 8 days for your next appointment. Just try to hold the thought that this could be totally benign. And even if it does need to be treated you have a great chance of success. You noticed it last week, and now you are having it checked out. That's really good! Many people leave it too long. Best wishes. xx Harry
As the days go by of waiting for my derm appointmen i am becoming more and more anxious and fearing the worst! I have now convinced myself i have subungal melanoma and i am going to die. This is breaking my heart because i have two beautiful children and i don't want to leave them i cant stand the thought of it! How will i explain to my children i am going to die?! this world is so so unfair and harsh i can not stand it any longer i just want this nightmare to be over and to wake up back to my normal happy self.
Yes, it's unfair, but you must remember that you have reacted extremely quickly and efficiently. That really puts the odds in your favour even if, God Forbid, your worst fears are confirmed. You are only dwelling on the worst case scenario. But I do know how you feel. I suffer from scanxiety during check ups and this does not go away even though I know that I will be very unlucky if something is discovered. Anyway, I think you have 6 days left now. A good thing now might be distraction. Going away on holiday is probably not possible for you now, but it would be a great way of passing the time. xx Harry
Dr Google is responsible for a lot of anxiety and would be struck off if he was a real doctor. There are several other things it could be, a splinter haemmorhage is just one of them. I've had those in the past and not even remembered stubbing my toe or someone stepping on it.
If (and it is a massive IF) you do have the thing you fear, all is not lost. You've done the right thing in seeing your doctor. Catching cancer early is the biggest factor in having a happy outcome - the earlier a diagnosis is made the better.
The dermatologist may want to arrange some additional scans and tests, even if they think it is unlikely you have cancer, so try not to be too anxious if that is the next step.
Thank you everyone for your lovely messages, they have made me feel much better about it all. Obviously i am still going to worry but there is not alot i can do at the moment, i haven't even been to see the derm yet... My partner has the next few days off work so that helps alot! my anxiety tends to peak when he is not around. When he is around i dont spend as much time on the net reading all these horror stories. I will probably be back on here again at some point having another freak out. im just glad this chat is around for people who need it to let off some steam because it really does help x
Just to say, I had a brown line on my toenail and was referred to a dermatologist. It was a toenail fungus. Not saying thats what you have but maybe try not to stress about it too much. It sounds like you noticed it early if it is something sinister though. Good luck with your appt, fingers crossed for you.
Hey, there is nothing wrong with you just because you're anxious about it. Don't beat yourself up. I find as soon as I get to bed my mind starts over thinking. It' a horrible situation to be in. Please let us know how you get on
Good luck AnxietyGirl! Lot's of things it could be, many of them perfectly benign. You may not get all the answers tomorrow, because the dermatologist may ask for a biopsy, just to be sure, and getting the results will take a few days. xx Harry