I (& all on here) know exactly how you're feeling & it seems like it's all you think about.
have you got operation arranged & have they advised if you'll need treatment after?
I managed by trying to take each day at a time & not thinking too far ahead. Step by step. It's hard I know but if you can, try to remain positive as you will get through this & as ladies on here helped me, we're all kicking cancers butt.
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