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Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 09:38

Hello everyone,

i guess I'm just posting as non of my family and friends can relate to how I'm feeling right now I'm so scared, I'm only 27 with young children I have a hard lump in my left breast I had needle aspiration to take my cells they called me back in and said these results came back unusual & did a biopsy I get my results tomorrow I am just not getting any sleep and worrying my self silly, thank you to whom ever may take the time to reply 

Re: Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 10:07 in response to Sam14

Hi Sam sorry to hear everything you are going through. Waiting for results is a very anxious time. It's the source of a high number of posts on here and those of us that have been there completely understand how you are feeling. 

I didn't have a lump. I had a routine mammogram screening early this year and got referred to the breast clinic due to abnormalities. To cut a long story short I was diagnosed with invasive breast cancer in March, had lumpectomy and sentinel lymph node removal in April and am waiting for radiotherapy to start. The reason I'm telling you my situation is that successful treatment for breast cancer is improving all the time so it is doable. I sincerely hope that you will get the all clear....and the stats are on your side as most lumps are benign conditions. Just yesterday @Beachbabe ‍ got the good news that hers was benign. Hopefully she will have a moment to pop by.

The good news is you got it checked and they are being thorough. One more day to your results hun. I always found I got more anxious the day before results so your feelings are completely normal.  

If it does turn out to be breast cancer you can kick it's butt. And there is a whole group of us breast ladies on here doing that hun. If you look at the thread the good and the bad you will see that we talk about everything and find the fun in life. We are here for you if you need or want us. 

Good luck for tomorrow. I'd love to hear how you get on if you are happy to share x

Re: Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 10:34 in response to Cornishpastie

Thank you for taking the time to reply that's made me feel abit better iv been not so bad leading up to my results but I guess now it's tomorrow I'm freaking out my mind runs wild scared for my children the most, I will post the result tomorrow, fingers crossed for us all I hope you are doing okay 

Re: Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 10:39 in response to Cornishpastie

Hi Sam sorry to read your post but you have come to the right place. Although we can’t take the worry away hopefully we can help ease it a little. As Cornish said yesterday I had my results and they were benign. I also found a lump had core biopsies which came back inconclusive. A week later I was in hospital having the lumps and margins (tissue round the lumps) taken out.  After another two weeks wait for results it came to yesterday. The emotional rollercoaster kicked in big time. When the doctor said benign I froze he then said it again! Even today I am still numb  as I was sure he was going to say the worse. 

I felt like you are family and friends don’t understand fully although they are very supportive. The ladies on here helped so much as they know exactly how people feel. Ask anything we will help you best way we can. Fingers crossed for good results 

Julie x 

Re: Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 10:41 in response to Sam14

Glad I can help. It's a scary place to find yourself, especially with young children...i have a 9 year old as well as 3 that are grown. 

I'm doing good and thank you for asking. Don't get me wrong I've had a couple of dark days when all I wanted to do was focus on practicalities should things swing in the wrong decision.....but that has only been a couple of times and I like to find something every day that gives me a good belly laugh with happy tears. Radiotherapy is my next step (had lumpectomy and sentinel lymph node removal last month). Once that is done I will be taking tamoxifen for 5 years (started it last week), but if that's all it takes to get rid of it then it's a small price. I'm booking a nice holiday when done lol. 

Good luck for tomorrow, take someone with you and ask them to write down what the doc says as you defo forget. Xxxx

Re: Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 10:47 in response to Cornishpastie

Thank you ladies just your replies have mad enough me feel abit better I joined as i find it better to talk to people in the same journeys as family don't know how to be with me I think what makes it worse is only knowing half the story's I know my cells are not normal and that's it I wish I didn't know anyththing at all until I knew the full  picture my kids are getting me through to my results and keeping me busy its the nights that are the worst x 

Re: Awaiting results so scared

17 May 2018 11:08 in response to Sam14

Totally agree the nights are not good. I don’t have an other half so once my 15 year old went to bed it was just me. The mind goes in over drive. This is the time I found this site a God send. Normally someone is about to chat to. I also started a day by day journal of how I felt the good parts of the day and the bad. Some days there was no good parts but then the next day there would be. You are human you will feel every emotion going and until you know what you are dealing with it will seem worse. You can do this, we are with you every step of the way x