last year, I lost my mother who was my world to cervical cancer with secondary bone cancer. I knew she had cancer from the age of 15, ever since then I’ve never been the same. When she found out after having cervical cancer treatment etc she had secondary bone cancer and had six months to live, I gave up college to look after her at home and she was basically my everything, she had to go to a hospice after a couple of months due to her not being able to go to the toilet and her pain was unbearable, she was the most kindest loveliest lady I’ll ever met, never holds grudges never hated anyone and always thought of her kids. She died eight months after she got the news, It’s now been a year. I feel angry, I never say anything I shout I don’t want to be around people, I constantly miss her and I feel like it’s never going to get better? Will it ever get better because the way I’m feeling I feel like i don’t want to be here anymore, at 19 it’s scary to think you’ll never have your mum back.