I have been an active member on here for over 2 years now as my Dad was diagnosed with stage 4 bowel cancer that had spread to his lungs and liver in April 2015. Unfortunately in April this year the cancer then spread to his brain and he lost his battle on the 23rd August. So two months ago! It was horrendous. Many lose their battles to cancer every day but once it goes to the brain it is horrific for the family to watch. My dad's final moments weren't exactly peaceful although he wasn't in any pain the look on his face hours before he died was the look of death, he had also developed the death rattle which is one of the most terrifying sounds from a dying person. Not only have I lost my Dad at 28 years old but I lost him in a very difficult way that many don't understand. And this has probably effected me a lot more than if he had died peacefully in his sleep. The family had to watch Dad deteoriate to skin and bones, bed ridden, unable to eat or drink, watch tv, do absolutely nothing and became literally a vegetable who couldn't speak or communicate apart from occasionally opening his eyes to blink at us. He underwent brain surgery, suffered from a stroke, had sepsis twice all in the space of a few months. He spent a month in a hospice and was then allowed home to die. 

Just wondering if there's anyone on here who can relate and understand? It is so hard because whilst some people have lost a parent the circumstances were very different.